Some big changes to my schedule! After a rough year of driving from the valley to west LA, I finally surrendered and let all of my Santa Monica, Culver City, and Marina del Rey classes go. Well, actually they let ME go (be sure to check out my next post on The Magazine of Yoga for the details). I spent the last year trying to fill my schedule with classes and now I feel as though I am starting all over again.
So often we hold onto things that do not serve us. Eventually the universe will pull you away for your own good. It is our responsibility to find the lesson in the loss. As crazy as it sounds, 2011 taught me to appreciate, even celebrate loss. It really all comes down to perspective, have we lost something when people, jobs, or material items are no longer a part of our lives? Or, have we gained clarity by stripping away some of life’s distractions? When people are no longer in our lives due to conflict, distance, or death this is also an opportunity for growth and clarity, but only if we see it as such. Starting over again with finding new places to teach is much easier due to the lessons I learned the first time around.
What I know now is – I made a lot of decisions based on fear. The fear of not finding teaching gigs so I applied for and accepted just about every teaching job I came across! Just as setting an intention in class sets the tone of our practice, on some level I set the tone of my career on a low vibration of fear.
I look forward to what the new year brings and I am doing my best to not be led by expectation or fear.